Friday, July 27, 2012

this strange life of ours

Last week Syd and T were at the Walters family reunion. I got to have them home with me most of yesterday and today, and then tomorrow they are off again with their daddy to go see Nana & Papa.

Will that ever seem normal to me?
It really is so strange to send my little babies away for what seems like such a long time.
It is so strange to have them gone and not know what they are doing all day.
So strange...will it ever seem normal I wonder?

But, they are loved,
they are happy,
and this is our life.

But that doesn't mean I won't miss them with my entire heart,
& long to hold them until they are once again home with me...
asking me a million questions a minute,
fighting with each other, 
or being each others best friends...
...refusing to eat their dinner until I ask them for what seems like the 100th time,
and everything else... 

When the noise is gone,  
there is always a hole in my heart, 
& a longing for my little children,
that fill up the part of me that I love so, so much.


  1. I agree, beautifully said.

  2. I have been single for over six years. I am sorry to say that having them gone never becomes normal. This is the first full summer my kids have been with their dad. Even though I am happy for all of them, I am sooo lost with out my kids! I miss them, I want them to come running through the door and throw their shoes on the floor and eat all of the food that is currently rotting in my fridge (I haven't learned to shop for one yet)! I am not happy with them gone, I try to be, but I signed up to be a mom, and that is what I want to be.
    I loved reading your post, it reaffirms that I am not alone in this. I work a lot of overtime and just try to keep really busy, and that helps. I hope things are going better for you, Rebecca.
    Jeanette Lowe


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